I thought I think too much

I've been fortunate enough To be surrounded by souls that are born with an itch. I've been blessed enough To have learned so much with souls that knows how it feels to be incomplete I have then... been shared enough to understand love and pushed enough to let things go. To let things fall slowly through my fingers... So slow that I can just grasp it back and hold it close again. But I have been taught... ...maybe not enough... at least not yet... But I have known that everything that falls, they will fall right into place. That things are the way it should be, at least for now... And I have always been taught to feel blessed enough that things are in their places... And maybe one day I'll wake up to feel just one thing missing... But I'll see that I am still and forever will be surrounded by souls that holds me close. Slowly... Grasping me tight on days where my shadows seems to haunt me and my darkness smiles at my fears. Because I have won.

Whenever someone tells me to imagine my happy place, I always close my eyes and smell the clean air of a night filled with stars... Not too hot, not too cold. Just enough for a handful of oxygen to breathe in and make love in my lungs. On top of a mountain, overlooking the city lights just a few miles away. Cause then I'll be alone...but not too alone. I'll be in solitude...but still surrounded by lives. I'll be just by myself...but still aware that I'm part of something else. Whenever someone tells me to listen to the sounds surrounding me, I always hear a faint radio in the background. The songs changes from time to time. Like right now..... ......it's Hey Jude. Not too loud, not also a whisper. Just enough to make things better. anytime you feel the pain, hey Jude refrain Don't carry the world upon your shoulders . Then I remembered, that I've tried to refrain. Just to hurt myself, To repair something I've stepped on Just to see